Trace through your past and maybe you’ll see why you have wound up where you are today.

Did you make one mistake that you didn’t think much of at the time? That might have been all it took to get you where you are today. It’s kind of like those choose your own adventure books that came out when I was younger.

Today I find myself backtracking and looking for the point when it all went wrong. Even if I can pinpoint that time it’s of little value other than to satisfy my own curiosity as one cannot go back and correct a mistake or at least I don’t think that technology exists yet. Perhaps it does in some secret black site but the general public is completely unaware of it.

These days it feels like we are living in clown world. Down is up, black is white, what you’re told doesn’t match with what you perceive.

I feel like I’m living in some sort of a twilight zone. Some sort of quantum state where the strangeness exists and two different things are true at the same time. Perhaps that is why I am experiencing physical pain all over my body. Perhaps that is why every conversation I have with others feels like one big gaslighting session. It’s hard to explain without writing a novel but I don’t have the energy for that. I try and talk about it in videos I make but no one ever sees them or comments. It’s as if I have been shadow banned from existence all because I have sought out knowledge and perhaps I know too much about the nature of our existence here in this realm.

Things are not always as they appear.

It is possible that this thing that we call life is all part of one big simulation. If that’s the case, then we are all in real trouble as I believe that we were all supposed to learn something that we have not learned yet and are very far off from doing so.

I’d like a bigger microphone as to discuss what I have found but for now, all I have is my little website.