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One year in the life

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How does one measure a year? About this time last year it was Easter Sunday which seemingly everyone was calling Resurrection Sunday like it had always been called that and to suggest otherwise was blasphemous. In addition to that, Transgender visibility day fell on the same day to add to the political debate and caused further controversy and division among the people. This of course was played off as Transgender visibility day had been a thing for a long time and it was purely coincidence that it was falling on the same day as one of the two holiest days of the year on the Christian calendar. More gaslighting in my opinion.

Perhaps this was the start of when I noticed that people were acting a little differently, a little more strange. There was an eclipse coming up in a few days on April 8, 2024 and that did not seem to help things, but I definitely noticed a change in people. Like there was something in the air that was causing everyone and everything to just be a little off kilter. I can’t really describe it.

I remember sitting at Easter brunch doing some people watching as they filed up to the all you can eat buffet feeling like a stranger in a strange land. Something had to be done. First thing was first. I hadn’t changed my handle on my YouTube channel in a while so I thought now was a good time. Long ago, I had it set as Cyndi the Great as I have always wondered what it takes to be great and knowing that our society hasn’t had anyone who has been known as “the Great” in a long time. I wonder why. In my search for the meaning and purpose of this human condition and my quest to achieve a higher state of consciousness I have always felt that I would someday do something and achieve greatness. Perhaps this lies within each and every one of us but that is something that I have been searching for my entire life as there has to be more to it than just suffering, servitude and then death.

I changed that handle long ago though because as much as I am pursuing greatness, I have not achieved it yet nor do I wish to be that arrogant and demand such a thing that I have not yet achieved. I settled in on a more anonymous Cyndi the courier as that is who I am and that is what I did. I live in a pretty big city and while I wanted something that still could identify me out in the real world, the likelihood of that happening was still pretty small. Then on Easter Sunday I changed it again for I thought was the last time.

I changed my handle to amancalledcyn that day as it seemed like the timing was right and I seemed to fit the description. It might look like a bunch of gibberish but add in a few spaces and the moniker should become clear a man called cyn. I went with called instead of named to throw it off just a little more and protect myself as I think I’m working on something big here. Is this biblical big that I write about? Yes, I believe that it is. There is some secret code written into the Bible that man has been trying to break since time immemorial and if the recent increase in discussion of end times prophecy is any indication, it appears that we are getting closer to that time.

Perhaps that is why there is all this talk about Agenda 2030. It takes little imagination to understand that the political elites know more than what is being told to the people of the world. Maybe there is a plan that the general public is not privy to and those in power know more than they are telling the people. I used to listen to a song by the rock band Warrant titled “April 2031” and that was off their album Dog Eat Dog released in the early 1990’s. The song is apocalyptic in nature.

It’s my opinion that something big has been preplanned for the future and I have been investigating all the angles that I can process in order to uncover it in hopes to avoid a disaster. I am attempting to answer a question as to whether the future is predetermined or if it is truly one of our own making and if it is the latter then who is pushing for this destruction? My big problem was that my only outlet is this blog as I feel that any posts that I make in mainstream social media networks are censored or have such limited reach that people on my friends list don’t even see what I post or even f they do, they just keep scrolling as I tend to be a bit wordy. Maybe I’m just not that good at using social media but I think somewhere along the line I must have set off some kind of alarm that my speech was to be limited. That’s the only explanation that I have. This shadow banning is a deterrent but it doesn’t stop me from searching for the truth.

Some of the angles are so preposterous and border on the conspiratorial and cannot be proven. Perhaps it’s supposed to remain a mystery. Maybe there is something to what is written in the scripture known as the Holy Bible but I can’t be to sure about that as there’s a lot of books that have been omitted over the years and the Vatican keeps it’s library under heavy security as if there’s information hidden there that is not supposed to be known for fear that the whole religion might be discredited. Just imagine what damage could be done if the worldview of a billion people was destroyed in an instant. I guess that would qualify as sudden destruction and that has been prophesied.

It seems like we are speeding towards this outcome whether it’s warranted or not as Christianity is the dominant religion in the western world. As we approach the one year anniversary of the Great American Eclipse, I have to wonder if something glorious or miraculous is about to happen…most likely nothing will happen. The sun will rise and set just like it always does but will there be a shift in our collective consciousness greater than last year? I can’t speak for anyone else but it seems like I’m in some time paradox. In 2023 we were all warned of a dark winter coming but if my memory serves, the winter of 2023 to 2024 was rather mild. I can’t say the same for last winter as it was particularly harsh at least for me.

Well the day is upon us, and nothing has really happened. Sure the stock markets are down but that doesn’t mean much as there are ways people make money when trading volumes are going up and there are ways to make money when stocks are going down. I guess that’s why it’s called trading as money is just trading hands from one person to another but overall the whole thing doesn’t make sense to me so I stay out of it.

There are also further problems in the Middle East and issues between the usual suspects. This has been going on for far too long with no end in sight. Someday, someone will come along and solve that problem for good but I wouldn’t count on that happening any time soon. I at its core, it’s a war over ideologies and that never ends well. It’s all part of some grand scheme to unite the world under one system of government and I doubt that’s going to happen as the people are too diverse in their customs for that to happen and that doesn’t even touch on the subject of greed that lies within humanity or the overall feeling that one has to have way more than everyone else at the expense of their neighbors. One would think that we should have learned something about this by now but we have not and this seemingly endless cycle continues. Perhaps it’s time to break it.

Maybe it’s time that we work to break this free from this corrupt system. Perhaps that’s what this whole talk of the rapture is all about? All over YouTube or then again maybe just in my feed, there’s talk of the rapture by all of the watchmen. They’ve been doing all their calculations and they think that it’s got to be coming soon. I want to believe them and don’t want to be labeled a mocker or a scoffer as they like to say as these beliefs are genuinely held by them that the true believers are going to be magically transported away from this world soon before the time of tribulation begins.

With that said, it’s hard to see how this time has not been anything but tribulation for many people in this world though, so I don’t know how much worse some of these rapture watchers think it can get. There are so many people in the world today who are simply existing at a subsistence level with no means to escape that endless struggle. Each day is more of the same. It does not have to be like this but it is and no one seems to be speaking out about all of the inequality that goes on in this world.

So what is next up on the calendar? Easter? Passover? Yes to both. Will something happen by then? Again, probably not but then again I am not invited to the meetings that make these decisions so I can’t really say. Maybe the this rapture thing that they speak of will be small and kind of a dud as if it’s not supposed to happen. Maybe that would prove that it’s not a real thing. I have spoken about this in the past on several videos posted on my facebook page but now due to a change in policy over storage issues, facebook will be deleting all my old live videos and they will be gone, lost forever because I’m not going through the hassle of downloading and saving them on another platform. Perhaps that’s for the best.

Maybe I’ve said all that I wanted or needed to say or maybe I’ve said too much already. Maybe I should stop talking and maybe I should stop writing as I don’t know if anyone reads them and judging by the feedback that I get which is none, nobody reads them so aside from me using this as a place to express myself and vent a little, it really doesn’t make any difference whether I continue to write here or not. I hope something good happens soon and I guess something good is going to happen at least for me. Tomorrow I finally get to escape the long term hotel that I have been staying at for the last ten months of which I have given the nickname hotel hell.

Are better days on the horizon? I hope so but then again I know this is going to be another uphill climb and I’m getting tired of always climbing because for me it’s doesn’t seem to be hills but mountains that I have to ascend. Is it all part of some divine plan or is it all just some big cosmic joke? I don’t know. I’m sitting alone now in my new apartment and while I should be happy to finally be out of the hotel, the depression seems to be getting worse. Now I’m surrounded by boxes of just some of my stuff with a lot more left in storage. It’s probably going to have to stay there because I can’t imagine lugging it all up two flights of stairs to the third floor only to life among a bunch of boxes.

What’s in the boxes you ask? My various collections most of which consist of die cast vehicles with numbers estimated to be between the 15-20,000 range. It’s something that I’ve been doing for over 25 years now and I’m a completist, meaning when it said on the package to collect them all, that’s what I attempted to do. What did I plant on doing either all these you ask? I don’t know that either. I guess there was a dream to put them all on display as to abstractly show what a misspent life looks like as they really mean nothing are just really toys that are supposed to be played with and enjoyed by children and not scalped by adults always looking to turn a profit. I never planned to sell them, just keep collecting. I’ve seen enough stories about how a little toy car that originally sold for a couple dollars is somehow worth a couple hundred dollars now, but then again, things are only worth what others are willing to pay for them.

What does one do with a collection that one has spent half a lifetime acquiring? I’m not looking forward to selling it as the shear volume of it all is daunting and overwhelming. At this time, I can’t put a number on what I think the value of the whole collection is but have to believe that at minimum at approximately $1.00 per unit, I’m looking at some serious money. Of course knowing my luck, I would have a hard time getting that much as I’m not good at selling anything. Maybe I should just take the huge loss and dispose of them for pennies on the dollar. The lesson here that has been hard to learn is that once you buy something, you better be happy with it as you own and to anyone else, it isn’t worth that much. Almost everything loses value and very little in this world holds value or even rises in value. That should not be confused with price as prices and values are two very different things. If you’ve ever heard the saying that someone knows the price of everything and the value of nothing then you can understand what I’m talking about.

I don’t know what I’m going to do with the collection but step one is trying to get a good valuation of it all. I have spent the last week or so, trying to accurately count how many pieces are in it. The number I currently have is just over 14,000 with a few more boxes to go. When it’s all counted, I estimate the number to be just over 15,000 so my early low estimate was good. Now that I know how much I have, I can begin the process of trying to figure out what to do with it all. There’s a part of me that wants to open a store and I think that’s a pretty good idea as I think that I have enough to fill one, but I lack the money to do that, so I’m kind of stuck at the moment. Someday I’ll figure this one out but that day is not today and I don’t think the day is coming anytime soon; kind of like the rapture.

The watchmen on the wall are still waiting for this event to take place and the fact that it did not happen last Sunday just means that there’s going to be a whole new set of times that are high watch periods. Maybe now that Pope Francis has passed on, another marker has been hit but I doubt that. It looks like the prophecy was misinterpreted or wrong again and the Vatican will be electing a new pope soon enough. Maybe this next one will be the final pope or possibly there’s nothing new under the sun. I’m still good to hold out hope for this rapture thing to happen but with each passing day, the whole idea sounds more convoluted. I highly doubt that some miraculous event is going to take place and we believers are going to be magically taken out of this world to go live with the Lord, Jesus Christ as they like to say.

Well, Easter and Passover have come and gone and almost all of us are still here. There are a few more days coming up that seem promising but then again, I will prepare for more disappointment. Lately, my depression has been taking quite a toll on me and I don’t know how much longer I can continue on like this. Last weekend was one panic attack after another and it’s really wearing me down. Do with that said, maybe we are on the brink of something big. In about a week or on May Day to be more precise, I will be observing the one year anniversary since everything in my world got turned upside down. As above, so below is what they say. What did I do to deserve all of this? I wrote someone a letter about a job that I thought I would be good at doing. I didn’t get that job. I guess it was kind of a long shot, or maybe I was a little bit too optimistic to think I could make a change in that capacity. Most likely what had happened was the job had been promised to someone else already and we all had to go through a big show. In any event, I have little confidence in the man currently in that position.

What pisses me off the most about the whole thing is how my life completely unraveled while everyone else’s seemingly improved. I don’t know how it was done but there were plenty of people and clues that were working on making me think that I was on the right track but impossible to explain to others. The story was too convoluted to be real. I must have been having a mental illness episode. At the time I don’t think I was but now months after the fact, it’s clear that I have developed a serious case of depression. I’m trying to break out of it but it is difficult and now life has become a day to day struggle.

One year to completely ruin your life? I took that challenge and it worked. Mission accomplished. Maybe now that I’ve lost most everything that I once cared about and had to sell off a lot of things that had sentimental value now I can move on and start over with a new goal. Maybe in a year from now I can get to a place where I am better than I was before.

I guess only time will tell but something tells me that if the political climate stays the same, the economy will not improve for the the vast majority of people and we’re all in for a very bumpy ride. The media can’t call it a recession for some reason or another but for many people, self included, it feels a lot like a depression. So much for that new golden age thing that we were promised. Maybe it will get better but that remains to be seen. It seems that any improvement won’t be seen without a period of great pain and suffering for many for the foreseeable future.

This country and this world needs a savior and sadly no one is coming to save anyone. We are on our own here. We can continue to debate stupid topics but in my opinion it’s time to get real. The republicans have no plan nor do the democrats. Salvation cannot be found within the current two party paradigm for they are merely two sides of the same coin. Heads they win and tails you lose. It is time for radical restructuring across the board. I need to strengthen my resolve, slim down and prepare myself for the road ahead for I cannot sit idly by and watching this slow moving train wreck happen.

Somewhere, someone has to stand up and say that this is unacceptable and we do not have to stand for this any longer. While I’m not a savior in any sense of the word nor do I want to be looked on as one, I’m very concerned that America and the way of life that so many people love is in danger of being lost and the future is looking quite bleak. Perhaps I need to get out my pen and paper and write some more letters to some world leaders. Maybe they will listen this time. The last time I tried to express my concerns it fell on deaf ears, maybe this time it will be different.

Is judgement upon us? If it’s not, it sure does feel like it. I will try to remain optimistic about the future but it is difficult. How much tyranny are we expected to tolerate? That amount varies from person to person but something tells me that amount is large and it can be enormous when you’re not even allowed to speak the word. When freedom of speech is lost, everything else is too. Is it too late to get us all back on track? I’m hesitant to say no because I don’t want to believe that it’s ever too late but we better start getting to the root cause of our problems very quickly and solve them or someday soon it will be too late to do anything about it at all and then it’s done.

I can’t keep going on giving out warnings like this. I hope someone reads this and passes it along.

Don’t open the box

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https://youtu.be/nH00I0w5Izk
Lately it seems that we’re all having a hard time distinguishing real news from fake news. Alex Jones and his team at Infowars are a self funded operation. They are not funded by the billion dollar industry that is the mainstream media, which is referred to as the fourth branch of the government. Sometimes in life, we all have to make a decision as what we think is real information and disinformation. While I can’t make that decision for anyone but myself, I have to question whether or not all of those talking heads on the big networks who get paid millions of dollars are just reading from the government sponsored script. While the opinions of the pundits that you watch on your television news often vary, there mostly the same as they are put there trying to convince the masses that the government is hard at work trying to fix problems that they intentionally create. 

Most of the time, the lead story of the day is something atrocious that is happening on the other side of the country or the other side of the world. It’s easy to get scared as they are using fear to drive you into submission. 

This clip is an example of what is really happening. The roll out of new technologies is not done by accident. The media then writes the script and spins it in a way that these new technologies are going to be beneficial to our existence and make our lives easier. They want you to believe that in the future everything is going to be better and you’ll have more time to enjoy your life without having to spend countless hours toiling away at a meaningless job. 

In reality, the underlying message is that human life is rapidly becoming obsolete. President Dwight David Eisenhower warned us at the end of his time in office to beware of the military industrial complex and one of the many things that come out of that is the idea of planned obsolescence. Eisenhower’s successor knew about this plan too. President John Fitzgerald Kennedy wanted to change our country and put an end to the shadow government that was planning our obsolescence. We all know what happened to JFK although the official story is still debated to this day. We will never know who really killed him as the official story has more holes in it than can be counted. 

The United States has gotten so much worse ever since that fateful day back in November of 1963. It’s my opinion that every single president since then has not had the future of America’s citizens best interests in mind. They have all served the interests of the big monied organizations that operate in secret and have no regard for the people. It’s all about keeping an economy going and lining their pockets with money that is created by them and backed by nothing. 

The fiat money is almost inconsequential as it really only is used to represent power that the elite have over all of us. The agenda has always been global enslavement and someday there won’t even be a need for slaves anymore. What happens when humans become obsolete? Does anyone honestly think we’re all going to live in a utopia? 

There’s a fine line between utopia and dystopia. It might sound good not to have to work and worry about money but I can assure you there is a catch; there always is. It’s called bait and switch. Are you willing to give up your freedom for convenience? Personally, I’m not as we are not free right now. We are all shackled to the system. 
Here is the link to one of the articles that Alex Jones was referencing: 

https://www.weforum.org/agenda/2016/11/shopping-i-can-t-really-remember-what-that-is/

Does that sound like a world that you want to live in? If that is the inevitable future for us, can we even call it living anymore? 

This is not fake news. This is the plan for our demise. 

If you are reading this and you value your life and your right to self determination, you need to know the truth and we all need to stop fighting one another and unite to prevent this very possible and almost imminent future from happening.  This is going to require sacrifices to be made in order to achieve real freedom. 
Remember what Patrick Henry said:

Give me liberty or give me death 

The human body is nothing more than a prison for the human spirit but at least it’s a prison that you own. The human spirit is more commonly known as your soul and your soul is infinite. It will live on long after your body wears out. 

I can’t make a decision for any of you, but I, for one, do not want my soul uploaded into a machine. It won’t work out well for any of us. It’s not part of the natural order of things. 

We have been warned of this time and time again but we never learn and that is why history always repeats itself. 

I urge everyone to rise up and break free from the control grid while there is still time because once we go too far down a road that we shouldn’t, it’s going to take millennia for our species too recover if at all. When a species has the technological capability to destroy itself, perhaps it’s time for us to cease to be. 

We are human. We are not gods. While belief systems vary throughout our world, in the end there is only one God. It is my opinion that He is not pleased with the way we have been conducting ourselves lately. 

We are very technologically advanced society. While many will argue that is a good thing, the fact remains that technologically advanced civilizations are the easiest ones to be destroyed. There is no such thing as too big to fail because the bigger it is, the harder it falls. 

If you would like a second opinion, please try and find someone who lived in Atlantis. They can tell you all about how this thing called civilization works. Perhaps this time we have learned from our past mistakes and can do a better job to ensure a future for generations to come.

A Constitutional Crisis?

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Lately the feeling is in the air that the country known as the United States of America is in a constitutional crisis. This did not happen overnight nor did it happen due to one singular event like say the recent election of a new administration. No, this has been going on for a long time and I have heard many people share their thoughts and concerns on the subject. Are we in this country headed towards one? My personal opinion is, yes, we are in one and have been for quite some time. This is what happens when a corporate constitution is overlayed on to of the original document and then twisted to suit the needs of the corporation.

Not heading there but rather already in one

This corporation does not care about the people or the environment only profits and those profits are derived from a monetary supply which is based on debt and money that is inherently worthless. Can this nation survive much longer on this current trajectory? My simple answer is no.

There is an erosion of personal freedom and liberty going on no which is rapidly accelerating towards the point of no return. I don’t know when that point is, but should we reach that, there is no turning back and the old way of life will be gone forever. Future generations will have nothing but a life of enslavement in the world to look forward to, perhaps the upside to this is they will be so distracted by shiny objects and blissfully unaware of this condition that maybe it won’t matter anyway, but for anyone who remembers the way life was like just a few short years ago, this will turn into a hell on earth and that dystopian future that has been foretold in numerous tales time and time again.

While I don’t want to sound like Chicken Little in saying that the sky is falling and then it doesn’t happen, I can see it no other way. I do not know when this will happen and when we will reach this point of no return but I do believe that it is not too late to turn this ship around and correct the course and forge a new way forward that is beneficial for everyone. The current system which is in operation leaves too many people behind and fighting for resources which are kept artificially scarce and limited as to cause further shortages and more competition and division. I believe there is more than enough resources on the earth to go around where everyone should expect to live a life that is comfortable with all basic needs met which would allow all individuals the freedom to grow spiritually and pursue a higher level of consciousness of this human condition.

The time has come for change, for if we don’t it will be our end. The economy is teetering on the edge of collapse and so is society. This is what happens when the basic laws of mathematics are consistently broken. These events cannot be predicted nor can they be ignored. Perhaps that’s just the news that I’m being fed as news can and is tailored to individual preferences these days but I don’t think it’s the case.

Will our elected officials be able to vote us out of the mess that we find ourselves in? Probably not, but that is currently the only mechanism that we have outside of war to solve the problems that humanity faces. I don’t advocate for war nor do I think that anyone else does but the further that the politicians kick the can down the road it increases the likelihood that it becomes the only solution. Perhaps war is an inevitability and that has been foreshadowed by the existence of the Albert Pike letters in which he wrote about three great wars.

Lately I heard a story about how President Trump is planning on signing an executive order transferring US sovereignty back over to the United Kingdom in some bizarre plot to become king of America. What would that mean? One step closer to the New World Order. All sides are on the same side. There really are no enemies at that level. All geo-politics is just theatre for the people. There is a hidden agenda that has been working towards this goal for a long time. The political elite are hell bent on getting us their way and they care nothing for the people that they rule over. They would prefer that the vast majority of the people cease to exist and stop using up all of the resources that they have claimed ownership through various forms of legal wizardry and the use of contracts that they expect the people to honor yet they often do not themselves.

Are we in a constitutional crisis? I say so. The real question now is what can be done about it. If this long train of abuses cannot be stopped by peaceful means, then at may be the only option as when people have nothing and nothing to lose, the instinct for survival will kick in and they will fight back. Sadly, many will die in this process. It’s been said that the tree of liberty often needs to be watered by the blood of patriots. Well if that’s true, we have been going through drought like conditions for quite a while now and that tree is in desperate need of a downpour. I hope it doesn’t come to that as it does not have to be that way.

It’s time to wake up. You are at risk of losing your freedom and once it’s gone it’s gone forever, so don’t let that happen.

If we’re not there yet, we are dangerously close

Lots of things

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When you were five, what did you want to be when you grew up?

I don’t think that I could say with certainty what I wanted to be when I was five as the answer to that question probably varied from day to day. One day it might have been an astronaut and the next day it might have been a fireman and the day after that it might have been a cowboy. Who really knows for sure what they wanted to be when they were that young. With that said, that was back when the imagination was allowed to run freely and before the harsh realities of this world took effect and everything was reduced to chasing after a high paycheck.

Life shouldn’t have to be that way. I wonder what kind of place this would be if we all followed our dreams, especially the ones that we had when we were younger.

It’s an inevitability

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Do you believe in fate/destiny?

Trace through your past and maybe you’ll see why you have wound up where you are today.

Did you make one mistake that you didn’t think much of at the time? That might have been all it took to get you where you are today. It’s kind of like those choose your own adventure books that came out when I was younger.

Today I find myself backtracking and looking for the point when it all went wrong. Even if I can pinpoint that time it’s of little value other than to satisfy my own curiosity as one cannot go back and correct a mistake or at least I don’t think that technology exists yet. Perhaps it does in some secret black site but the general public is completely unaware of it.

These days it feels like we are living in clown world. Down is up, black is white, what you’re told doesn’t match with what you perceive.

I feel like I’m living in some sort of a twilight zone. Some sort of quantum state where the strangeness exists and two different things are true at the same time. Perhaps that is why I am experiencing physical pain all over my body. Perhaps that is why every conversation I have with others feels like one big gaslighting session. It’s hard to explain without writing a novel but I don’t have the energy for that. I try and talk about it in videos I make but no one ever sees them or comments. It’s as if I have been shadow banned from existence all because I have sought out knowledge and perhaps I know too much about the nature of our existence here in this realm.

Things are not always as they appear.

It is possible that this thing that we call life is all part of one big simulation. If that’s the case, then we are all in real trouble as I believe that we were all supposed to learn something that we have not learned yet and are very far off from doing so.

I’d like a bigger microphone as to discuss what I have found but for now, all I have is my little website.

It’s a blessing and a curse

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Share one of the best gifts you’ve ever received.

File this under the abstract but one of the best and one of the worst gifts that I’ve received is a higher than average level of intelligence. It doesn’t make me any better than anyone else as I struggle with things like feeling like an outsider in this world as I tend to over analyze things perhaps a little too much and look for ways to do things better. Often times, whatever the status quo is just doesn’t make sense and then I try to find out why it seems out of order. It’s a real predicament to find one’s self in.

So while being smart is a gift it is also looked down upon by many as we all like to believe that we are all equal. We all have our own special talents and that is what makes us unique from one another. Some people like gather a whole bunch of degrees and letters after their names as to prove their intelligence but somehow it just doesn’t seem right and hardly a good metric. While the movie was very exaggerated with the solving of the complex equations, my life seems a lot like Good Will Hunting and for the record I once did work for a while as a custodian for a school district.

I don’t spend my time solving complex equations, in fact, a lot of times, when I see things like that, all I see is a bunch of random symbols and have no idea of what someone is trying to prove. No, for me, I look for the truth about this world we live in and it’s getting more difficult every day to decipher what is real and what is not.

The chessman

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If you started a sports team, what would the colors and mascot be?

If I were to start a sports team then the colors of the team would be black and white like a chessboard and the chess pieces as it shows they are stark contrasts of each other to reflect the duality of the game, both offense and defense as every player on the team has to be able to play both sides. As far as the mascot goes I would pick a pawn as even the least powerful piece still has enough power to be positioned to put the king in check and win the game.

In one word, Yes

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How have your political views changed over time?

To say that my political views have changed over time would be an understatement. For the life of me, I can’t understand how political views cannot change in this ever changing world and at this moment in time, things are changing very quickly and if one is to stagnate and rest on one’s laurels then one risks being left out in the cold.

I remember back in high school noticing the shift. My family had always been conservative in their beliefs and voted along Republican Party lines and perhaps it was the need to be rebellious or acting out, I took a more democratic approach to how I viewed the world. That stuck with me for quite sometime until years later when the democrats got more liberal in their positions and then my own pendulum swung back towards the republicans…a position that I’ve held until recently wheee I find myself not fully on board with either party. Lately I have started making a more conscious effort to see both sides of each issue and I don’t know where that puts me in the political spectrum. There’s no right or wrong side to any of the issues that the country faces.

I’ve even changed my stance on voting as if I can’t in good conscience agree with everything a candidate campaigns on, then my vote will be withheld. I noticed a trend not to long ago in my own voting record. With the exception of Bill Clinton in 1996, I have consistently voted for the candidate who failed to win. The only candidate for president since then who has won since then was when I registered myself as a write in candidate in 2016. Of course I did not win the election and have no memory of serving in that capacity but I did win something intangible from that experience. I won peace of mind.

That’s funny, it says I was the President of the United States and I don’t remember doing that job. No recollection of living in the White House or meeting with other world leaders.

I was reminded of this when earlier this year I did a google search of myself and saw the strange listing pictured above. I found it amusing as it relates to something I did in the past and was listed as past tense as well. Did I really win back then? Was this a glimpse into the future of something that I was going to do later in time? Am I now living in some alternate reality? The questions could go on and on.

While I know that if given the opportunity to serve in that official capacity I would do a great job, it has not happened yet and perhaps it is just some cruel joke that the universe is playing with me as I pondered this listing a lot , and maybe too much, as to how to make this fabrication a reality. I have to wonder what anyone else would have done if they saw something like this attached to their name?

So have my political views changed, the answer is yes. We have a lot of problems in the country and in the world and each one of those problems don’t have a clear cut and dry solution. Will the incoming administration be successful? That remains to be seen and while there are a lot of good positions Donald Trump has taken and I do believe he means well, there are some other positions he has taken and surrounded himself with some people who might not have the country’s best interests at heart that are giving me reasons to be concerned. One thing that is for sure, the next few years are going to be interesting.

Something I’ve been thinking about for a while

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You get to build your perfect space for reading and writing. What’s it like?

If I were to build my perfect space for reading and writing I know just what I would do. Years ago I had a job where I was delivering wine for a wine shop. In that job, I noticed that the store would just throw away the wooden wine boxes and I as someone who doesn’t like things to go to waste, offered to take all of the boxes off their hands. Over the course of a year, I amassed quite a lot of them. Originally I was using them as bookshelves but I decided to fasten these together with glue and screws and noticed that I was building panels that in theory I could use for a construction project.

I looked at the couple hundred wine boxes and thought that I had enough to buying a small structure. Whether it was a tiny house, auxiliary building or garden shed, the ideas of building something out of materials that would have otherwise been discarded was very appealing to me. I have experience in some forms of construction and like to dabble in carpentry and thought this would be a perfect project what would allow my creativity to flow. The only problem was where to put such a thing. Maybe I could have put it on a trailer and make it mobile.

I’m still thinking about where to build this project and someday I hope to make the dream a reality but as time goes by it’s starting to feel like more of a pipe dream. Only time will tell but if I can someday build this project than I could think of nowhere better for a place to read and write than there. Of course I would need to add a few more materials to create the floor, siding and roof but I think that I could create something very nice from something that should have been thrown away.

The Pontiac Trans Am

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What is your all time favorite automobile?

Such an easy question for today’s daily prompt and here is my answer. This is more than a car for me than it is a dream or an old memory. I own a couple of these in various sizes, just not one that is full size and drivable. It’s not just any Pontiac Trans Am although on a whole each generation of the car got better than the previous generation and I could say that it is in general my favorite car but this particular model of this particular year is the pinnacle of the line. What is pictured here is a representation of the 1989 Pontiac 20th anniversary turbo Trans Am.

I got to ride in one of these once when I was too young to drive. I have since been in many other over the years and for a while owned one of it’s sister cars the Chevrolet Camaro Z28 but this one sticks out because of the memory.

At the time thus far was chosen to be the pace car for the Indianapolis 500 and at the time I lived just outside of Indianapolis. The month of May is known for all the festivities that surround the race and these cars were seemingly everywhere back then. My dad worked in the travel industry and won some kind of contest or got a perk and was awarded the use of one of these cars for a weekend. I didn’t know anything about this until one Friday afternoon I was called to the principals office and told not to skateboard home as my dad would be picking me up.

When I went outside, I was looking for the Oldsmobile that he owned and it was no where to be found. Then I noticed this car and sitting in the drivers seat was my dad. He looked so cool in my entire life up until that point. I got in the car and then he took me for a ride I will never forget. Normally he was a very conservative driver and used to get ridiculed by some members of my family for driving like an old man but this car unleashed a different side to him that I had never seen before and hadn’t ever since.

The car itself is fast. At the time it was the fastest car that was sold, even faster than the Corvette which was always supposed to be the fastest car that General Motors built and it did this all not for the small block V8 that the Corvette used but with the turbo charged V6 that was previously used in the Buick Grand National. If memory serves, the zero to sixty time was right around 5 seconds and back in 1989, that was fast.

Even the way it’s styled is beautiful. The white color with the gold wheels and camel interior all go very well together. I still see these rare cars around where I live now near Chicago on occasion and when I do, it’s the highlight of my day. Perhaps someday I’ll be able to afford one, but as time goes on, the price seems to just go up and up. Even if I don’t ever get to own one, I’ll be fine as I can always admire and dream about it as I look at the miniature versions of this very special automobile.