So, I just got the call this morning and am still a little numb if not more so than when the call came through. My very small family just got a little smaller today as my uncle just died less than 24 hours ago. The news wasn’t so much of a surprise as is was expected but then again, when it finally happens, all proverbial bets are off and now it’s time to try and find the good times and celebrate the life of someone who we hope has gone on to a better place…and maybe, hopefully, he has although there’s no way of knowing for sure.
Maybe there isn’t anything else afterwards and this one life that we all have, is it? I’m not really sure about that either. I suppose that the one question that we all have to ask ourselves on a daily basis. While Miles has just left his earthly confines, the question really boils down to what do the rest of us do?
Personally, I’ve been through this before but still I can’t begin to understand what my aunt is going through. I was only married for 10 years and we didn’t have any children; Carol and Miles were married for 50 years and had 3 childeren, one of them who didn’t even to make it to 35…he was pretty messed up but somehow we all overlook that and remember him for the good times…I really miss my cousin Matthew sometimes…it was a life cut too short, too soon, kind of like my wife’s. At times like this, I miss her more than ever although I know better than anyone else that she wasn’t perfect either…none of us are but that’s a different story altogether and I can thank my nephew for paraphrasing this:
All in all, it probably doesn’t matter to almost everyone else because deaths in the family are supposed to be a personal time, right? Maybe it’s true; that which doesn’t kill us inky makes us stronger and I think that I can finally say that it takes a death to finally make your way back home. Personally, I used to fear that man like he was a god or something like it. Well, he wasn’t a god and my little family just got a little bit smaller today.
and I played this on the jukebox because ultimately we all are, right?
Live well my friends and don’t worry about tomorrow because that will take care of itself.